He said, “Go into the city to a certain man, and say to him, ‘The Teacher says, “My time is at hand; I will keep the Passover at your house with My disciples.”’”
So the disciples did as Jesus had directed them; and they prepared the Passover.
When evening had come, He sat down with the twelve. Now as they were eating, He said, “Assuredly, I say to you, one of you will betray Me.”
And they were exceedingly sorrowful, and each of them began to say to Him, “Lord, is it I?”
He answered and said, “He who dipped his hand with Me in the dish will betray Me. The Son of Man indeed goes just as it is written of Him, but woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed! It would have been good for that man if he had not been born.”
Then Judas, who was betraying Him, answered and said, “Rabbi, is it I?”
He said to him, “You have said it.” (Matthew 26:18–25)
During the last supper, a Passover Seder, Jesus revealed that one of the Twelve was going to betray him. Each of them asked Jesus if he was the one. Only Judas got an affirmative answer.
All the disciples were going to run away from Jesus. Peter would wind up denying that he even knew Jesus. But only Judas worked to destroy Jesus. What motivated Judas in his actions is unknown. The New Testament authors only tell us that “Satan” had entered him. His action was unexpected and startling to the other disciples. None of them suspected him.
Of the twelve disciples who asked, “is it I?” only Judas knew the answer. If we wonder if we will betray Jesus, if we wonder if we might go astray in some way and like the other eleven, we really don’t know the answer to it, then our answer is what it was for all the disciples except for Judas. Those who are abandoning Jesus don’t really wonder whether they are doing it. They already know.